12/25 -

It was good to have a break over Christmas from the incessant sound of machines and “my” beloved trees tumbling down.  I realize that I am weary and will need to find some ways to care for my body, my heart, as the logging continues.  Each day starts so agonizingly down there, but I usually have found some wisdom somewhere in the midst of it all, coming back to pure support for the trees.  It is taking a toll though, I will have to see what I can stand.  Maybe being down there for it all isn’t the best thing.  Maybe I just need to touch in, pray in the meadow, and spare myself the pain of watching it all happen.  I will try to listen to the Grandfather again for what is needed.